As I said a few days ago, I'm going to talk to you guys about my high school journey which is still ongoing.
I'm 18 years old and I should have started university at the beginning of this school year but instead I am still in high school in 5th secondary/11th grade/ Junior Year (whatever you call it ) meaning that I am 2 years behind...
I always had problems to study and to work hard, I am not an outstanding student but I wasn't stupid either. Everything was fine until I was 15,when I started 11th grade for the first time,in 2012, that's when everything crashed down and that I went through depression so long story short I had no motivation, no energy, no nothing to keep going so when I finally got better, the school year was almost done but I did try to get good grades at my exams but I failed 3 classes out of 10-11, so I knew it was just not gonna work but starting a class over, at least in my country, is something really common, it wasn't that big of a deal.
At the beginning of the next school year (2013) I was still in 11th grade but it wasn't that bad, I was with a lot of friend who also had to start their year over and our heads were in a good place but then we got super lazy, and cocky, I played with fire and got burned. When I realised that I had failed maths I though that the universe wanted to punish me for something and I had no idea why.
Now (2014) I am still in 11th grade and I feel so bad going to school everyday. I don't understand why I am still in this grade just because I failed 1 class out of all the classes I have...
It makes me even more sad because all of my friends are always talking about starting university and they still have no idea what they want to do but I know, I have known since I was 15 and the worst thing is that I know that once I graduate, I won't need maths ever again...
Here's all the classes with how many hours per week so you can understand why I thought it was a joke when they told me that I had to do this class all over again.
Math-4h ( I changed it now I only have 2hours)
At the end of the day, I can only blame myself even if I really do think that the teachers had no intention of letting me finish high school ever..
I'll be fine, eventhough everytime I have to talk about this subject I feel like it's the end of the world but it's not, it really is not :) BISOUS ♥
ps: I wasn't feeling like translating all of that in french, maybe another day :)
J'avais pas trop envie de tout traduire en français, un autre jour peu être :)